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Y'know that thing where you can't sleep because your brain is worrying over all the responsibilities you have that you haven't properly dealt with?

Turns out, my brain will do that even when I don't have any responsibilities that I haven't properly dealt with. Which is what it did last night. You would think that I could just give it a list of how all my work projects are done, I don't have anything I've neglected to do at home, and all the crafty things I owe other people are progressing nicely. But no, that just leaves the nebulous worry that I've forgotten something important, something that's hanging over me and is going to come up and bite me in the ass.

I did not sleep terribly well last night.

Fortunately, this kind of stupid thing doesn't happen all that often. It's kinda interesting that anxiety!brain is so used to having big scary projects that I haven't done hanging over me that it defaults to that even when there is no big scary project to be found.

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Things that are annoying:

So I'm having a conversation with a coworker and a patron who used to work for the library (and thus with whom I am slightly acquainted - moreso than other patrons). And in the course of conversations, I happen to mention that I'm extremely shy.

Former library employee says, "Oh, you're not shy."

And, okay, maybe I should be happy that I've gotten to the point where I can convincingly fake not being shy most of the time. And maybe it's one of those things where I say things and people think I'm putting myself down and thus rush to assure me that I'm not that thing.

But a) saying "I'm shy" is like saying "I have brown hair. I do have brown hair and I am shy. Being shy causes me somewhat more problems than having brown hair but the fact of both of them is pretty neutral. I don't need to be told that those facts aren't true when I know that they are.

b) Lady, you do not live in my head. I have lived here for 29 years and if I say that I'm shy, you can take it that I know what I'm talking about. You don't get to tell me how I feel.

I am having a marshwiggly day in general, so probably things are bugging me more than normal. Still, it was very irritating.