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Jan. 17th, 2019
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Jan. 17th, 2019 02:33 pmI have cancelled on D&D for tonight which I feel a little guilty about (since this was already a makeup game for last Sunday - one of my other dudes couldn't make it - and I also can't make this Sunday because of PodCon).
But I also feel relieved about having done it, since I am not really in a good place. I've felt out of sorts and tired all week, which today has culminated in the Big Meeting wherein I started feeling overwhelmed and overstimulated about 5 minutes in. (There were too many people talking at once during the socializing part at the beginning and I couldn't make out anything being said to me - I don't deal well with that sort of thing at the best of times.) Thinking about tonight's game was less of "Yay, a fun thing I get to do!" and more "Oh no, yet another thing I have to do."
That is not a good way to get together with friends.
So I'm giving myself the night off to chill and next week, we will have a better game.
But I also feel relieved about having done it, since I am not really in a good place. I've felt out of sorts and tired all week, which today has culminated in the Big Meeting wherein I started feeling overwhelmed and overstimulated about 5 minutes in. (There were too many people talking at once during the socializing part at the beginning and I couldn't make out anything being said to me - I don't deal well with that sort of thing at the best of times.) Thinking about tonight's game was less of "Yay, a fun thing I get to do!" and more "Oh no, yet another thing I have to do."
That is not a good way to get together with friends.
So I'm giving myself the night off to chill and next week, we will have a better game.
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Jan. 17th, 2019 09:15 pmGood things about today:
- I found a sweater in my closet this morning that I hadn't worn since last winter. The sleeves had gotten a bit tattered, so I knit on new cuffs - the sweater is black and the cuffs are sapphire blue. They have thumb holes, because why not, right? I have really enjoyed wearing it today.
- Although the Big Meeting was in general pretty dreadful, it was nice seeing people I used to work with at Bainbridge that I rarely see anymore. I should try to start going to the monthly Bainbridge movie nights again, if only to see Patrick and John.
- I have this color-by-number phone app that has become my favorite mindless pastime, and it has a few new pictures every day. The other day, it gave me a picture of fat pink and purple unicorns on spaceships. Fat space unicorns are clearly the best thing, which is why that picture is now the lockscreen on my phone.
- I found a sweater in my closet this morning that I hadn't worn since last winter. The sleeves had gotten a bit tattered, so I knit on new cuffs - the sweater is black and the cuffs are sapphire blue. They have thumb holes, because why not, right? I have really enjoyed wearing it today.
- Although the Big Meeting was in general pretty dreadful, it was nice seeing people I used to work with at Bainbridge that I rarely see anymore. I should try to start going to the monthly Bainbridge movie nights again, if only to see Patrick and John.
- I have this color-by-number phone app that has become my favorite mindless pastime, and it has a few new pictures every day. The other day, it gave me a picture of fat pink and purple unicorns on spaceships. Fat space unicorns are clearly the best thing, which is why that picture is now the lockscreen on my phone.
