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Sep. 28th, 2013 08:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
darchildreSo, I am still grumpy. (Making cheese was fun, but then the grumpy came back.) Part of the problem* is that I don't currently have a story.
I usually do have a story. It's the story that I tell myself when I'm paging, or knitting, or doing the dishes, or driving, or going to sleep, or during that bit of the movie I'm watching where I realize that there's going to be a really prolonged battle scene that I'm going to have trouble following so I may as well think about something else for the next five minutes. And it's the story I tell myself to distract myself from unproductive negative emotion, like aggravation or anxiety. Sometimes they're about my current fannish obsession, sometimes they aren't, but there's almost always something.
Except, right now, my brain refuses to produce one. I am between fandoms at the moment, so there's nothing grabbing me there. I've tried going back to old standbys (Dracula stories, Frankenstein stories) but my monsters won't play. I can go over old scenes that I've already plotted extensively, but there's nothing new. And it's incredibly difficult to come up with something original when I'm already grumpy.
It's really quite depressing.
*There are several parts of the grumpiness problem but the rest of them are the bits that are actually making me grumpy as opposed to the bits that are preventing me from getting myself out of it, so I'm not talking about them right now.
I usually do have a story. It's the story that I tell myself when I'm paging, or knitting, or doing the dishes, or driving, or going to sleep, or during that bit of the movie I'm watching where I realize that there's going to be a really prolonged battle scene that I'm going to have trouble following so I may as well think about something else for the next five minutes. And it's the story I tell myself to distract myself from unproductive negative emotion, like aggravation or anxiety. Sometimes they're about my current fannish obsession, sometimes they aren't, but there's almost always something.
Except, right now, my brain refuses to produce one. I am between fandoms at the moment, so there's nothing grabbing me there. I've tried going back to old standbys (Dracula stories, Frankenstein stories) but my monsters won't play. I can go over old scenes that I've already plotted extensively, but there's nothing new. And it's incredibly difficult to come up with something original when I'm already grumpy.
It's really quite depressing.
*There are several parts of the grumpiness problem but the rest of them are the bits that are actually making me grumpy as opposed to the bits that are preventing me from getting myself out of it, so I'm not talking about them right now.
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Date: 2013-09-30 02:23 am (UTC)