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darchildre) wrote2013-07-14 08:21 pm
darchildre) wrote2013-07-14 08:21 pm
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Bad things about today:
- So, one of my mom's sisters is moving to Seattle. And that's cool, because I love her and it will be nice to see her more often, but she is here now apartment hunting and is kinda frantic about it. Also, apparently, it's being kept a secret from one of their other sisters? Who calls here pretty frequently to talk to my grandmother? I don't know why this is. Also, Granny is back which on the one hand, I'm glad she's being well-taken-care-of but on the other hand, she kinda drives all of us crazy. Plus I guess one of my sisters is visiting later in the week? Basically, everything is really crazy right now and has been really crazy for, it feels like, months and I am just tired of all of it and I kinda want to cry.
And I feel bad even complaining that I'm tired and stressed, because my parents have to deal directly with the drama and my sister has depression and my grandmother recently fractured a vertebra, whereas I am pretty much fine. It feels like I'm support for everything, like I have to be the happy optimistic one who assures people that things will get better all the time, and I can't do it all the time. Sometimes, I'm just tired. Really, I think what I'd like most is, for one day, when I do the polite "how are you?" greeting, people would lie to me and tell me that they're fine. Grar.
Good things about today:
- So, I saw Pacific Rim. Which was a movie about giant robots punching giant lizards and, really, I am totally down with that. And also with watching Idris Elba do just about anything. Plus, I didn't know Burn Gorman was going to be in it, and he was pretty much adorable. So that was cool.
- In a moment of beautiful synchronicity, I picked up the perfect book to go along with listening to Welcome to Night Vale. It is called American Elsewhere and is about a creepy town in the American Southwest that is, apparently, concealing many creepy secrets. I am about 100 pages in and I keep yelling things like "Do not look at the dog park!" at the protagonist.
- In April, a girl in choir invited me to join her gaming meet-up group, which I did. And it hasn't met all summer. Last night, I decided to find a place where I could RP online (with strangers, because apparently RPing online with people I actually know fills me with crippling anxiety and then I never post), specifically to play Call of Cthulhu. Because I've wanted to for years and have no one here to play with. So I found a forum and joined a game where we're all travelling on the Orient Express in the late 1930s. I am so excited! Also, I realized after I came up with my character concept that I had basically designed him to be played (in the Universal horror film of this game) by David Manners. That is hilarious.
We are going to concentrate on the good things.
- So, one of my mom's sisters is moving to Seattle. And that's cool, because I love her and it will be nice to see her more often, but she is here now apartment hunting and is kinda frantic about it. Also, apparently, it's being kept a secret from one of their other sisters? Who calls here pretty frequently to talk to my grandmother? I don't know why this is. Also, Granny is back which on the one hand, I'm glad she's being well-taken-care-of but on the other hand, she kinda drives all of us crazy. Plus I guess one of my sisters is visiting later in the week? Basically, everything is really crazy right now and has been really crazy for, it feels like, months and I am just tired of all of it and I kinda want to cry.
And I feel bad even complaining that I'm tired and stressed, because my parents have to deal directly with the drama and my sister has depression and my grandmother recently fractured a vertebra, whereas I am pretty much fine. It feels like I'm support for everything, like I have to be the happy optimistic one who assures people that things will get better all the time, and I can't do it all the time. Sometimes, I'm just tired. Really, I think what I'd like most is, for one day, when I do the polite "how are you?" greeting, people would lie to me and tell me that they're fine. Grar.
Good things about today:
- So, I saw Pacific Rim. Which was a movie about giant robots punching giant lizards and, really, I am totally down with that. And also with watching Idris Elba do just about anything. Plus, I didn't know Burn Gorman was going to be in it, and he was pretty much adorable. So that was cool.
- In a moment of beautiful synchronicity, I picked up the perfect book to go along with listening to Welcome to Night Vale. It is called American Elsewhere and is about a creepy town in the American Southwest that is, apparently, concealing many creepy secrets. I am about 100 pages in and I keep yelling things like "Do not look at the dog park!" at the protagonist.
- In April, a girl in choir invited me to join her gaming meet-up group, which I did. And it hasn't met all summer. Last night, I decided to find a place where I could RP online (with strangers, because apparently RPing online with people I actually know fills me with crippling anxiety and then I never post), specifically to play Call of Cthulhu. Because I've wanted to for years and have no one here to play with. So I found a forum and joined a game where we're all travelling on the Orient Express in the late 1930s. I am so excited! Also, I realized after I came up with my character concept that I had basically designed him to be played (in the Universal horror film of this game) by David Manners. That is hilarious.
We are going to concentrate on the good things.