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Feb. 23rd, 2023 11:18 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
darchildreWe had a two-hour opening delay this morning due to snow, so I decided to finish reading Downbelow Station before going to work. This was A Mistake. Not because the ending was bad - it was actually much more satisfying and much less bleak than I anticipated - but because now I am filled with jittery finished-a-book Emotions.
When that happens at home, I can do something physical to dispel the Emotions or I can distract myself by doing something else that fully engages my brain until they disperse on their own. At work, however, I have to sit still and do things that aren't fully engaging and all of it ends up transmuting into anxiety. It's my least favorite kind of anxiety, because it's the kind that feels the most stupid and ridiculous. There's nothing wrong, it's just that I had too much fun and some dumb lizard part of my brain started to panic about it, so now I have to feel like I've had a massive caffeine overdose for several hours.
The fact that I don't actually get any benefits from real caffeine but get pseudo-caffeine jitters from enjoying a book too much really sucks, actually.
When that happens at home, I can do something physical to dispel the Emotions or I can distract myself by doing something else that fully engages my brain until they disperse on their own. At work, however, I have to sit still and do things that aren't fully engaging and all of it ends up transmuting into anxiety. It's my least favorite kind of anxiety, because it's the kind that feels the most stupid and ridiculous. There's nothing wrong, it's just that I had too much fun and some dumb lizard part of my brain started to panic about it, so now I have to feel like I've had a massive caffeine overdose for several hours.
The fact that I don't actually get any benefits from real caffeine but get pseudo-caffeine jitters from enjoying a book too much really sucks, actually.
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Date: 2023-02-23 07:43 pm (UTC)It hits me worst if it's a series. I feel so bereft...
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Date: 2023-02-23 07:56 pm (UTC)The end of a series (or a really well-loved standalone) is the worst. Too many Emotions and no chance of more of the story? Awful. Just awful.
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Date: 2023-02-25 06:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-02-27 04:45 pm (UTC)I actually started reviewing what I read on Goodreads' phone app immediately after I finish a book to give my brain a distraction. It doesn't always help, but sometimes switching from reading mode to writing mode for just that little bit is enough to calm me down.