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Jan. 14th, 2016 08:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
darchildreToday (and yesterday too - multiple days of this nonsense, oh joy) I have that anxiety thing where I have anxiety symptoms but nothing that I'm actually anxious about. I really hate that thing.
If I'm anxious about a thing, I can fix it or prepare better for it or self-destructively avoid it and distract myself which is not ideal but is, I'll admit, a thing that I do. But this random free-floating reasonless nonsense? I just have to sit here with it and deal. And it's hard to explain to people, because they inevitably ask what's I'm worried about. I'm not, that's the thing - I'm not worried about anything, it's just that my stomach is a hard ball of nervousness and my hands are shaky for no frelling reason.
Grar.
If I'm anxious about a thing, I can fix it or prepare better for it or self-destructively avoid it and distract myself which is not ideal but is, I'll admit, a thing that I do. But this random free-floating reasonless nonsense? I just have to sit here with it and deal. And it's hard to explain to people, because they inevitably ask what's I'm worried about. I'm not, that's the thing - I'm not worried about anything, it's just that my stomach is a hard ball of nervousness and my hands are shaky for no frelling reason.
Grar.
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Date: 2016-01-14 08:29 pm (UTC)::hugs:: if you want them.
This sort of thing is the reason I tell people that CBT simply does not work for me.
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Date: 2016-01-14 09:02 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-01-15 09:44 pm (UTC)