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Feb. 25th, 2020 04:04 pmI have a cold - I started getting sick on Sunday and took yesterday and today off work. It is Not Great: my sore throat is thankfully gone and I'm not super gross or anything but I have a lot of brain fog, weird balance issues, and general exhaustion. I actually kinda hate that - there is a part of me that feels obscurely guilty, like I shouldn't get to act like I'm sick if all I have are non-visible symptoms and I'm not in any pain. This is dumb and I know it's dumb but I also still feel as though I ought to be apologizing to someone for malingering.
Mostly, I have spent the last two days sitting very still, watching Critical Role, and working on my current sweater-knitting project in between naps. It is entirely stockinette and I am almost to the end of the raglan increases, which means that it requires very little thought to knit and soon will require absolutely none at all. Since that is my current level of capability, it is perfect.
My supervisor texted me about noon today to ask if I was going to be in tomorrow. And okay, I know she has to think about scheduling and subs and all but man, it is very difficult to know at noon today how I'm going to feel at 8 o'clock tomorrow morning. I hope I'll feel well enough to go to work? But I kinda resent the pressure put on me to know today. I've told her that I hope to be in and will let her know if anything changes - I'll evaluate how I feel when I wake up in the morning.
(One of the advantages of having worked for the library for so long and being, in general, fairly healthy is that I have a truly astounding amount of sick leave saved up. So at least I don't have to worry about that.)
...I'm pretty sure I had something else I wanted to write about when I started this post, but it is gone now because my brain is malfunctioning. Oh well. I'm sure it wasn't important.
Mostly, I have spent the last two days sitting very still, watching Critical Role, and working on my current sweater-knitting project in between naps. It is entirely stockinette and I am almost to the end of the raglan increases, which means that it requires very little thought to knit and soon will require absolutely none at all. Since that is my current level of capability, it is perfect.
My supervisor texted me about noon today to ask if I was going to be in tomorrow. And okay, I know she has to think about scheduling and subs and all but man, it is very difficult to know at noon today how I'm going to feel at 8 o'clock tomorrow morning. I hope I'll feel well enough to go to work? But I kinda resent the pressure put on me to know today. I've told her that I hope to be in and will let her know if anything changes - I'll evaluate how I feel when I wake up in the morning.
(One of the advantages of having worked for the library for so long and being, in general, fairly healthy is that I have a truly astounding amount of sick leave saved up. So at least I don't have to worry about that.)
...I'm pretty sure I had something else I wanted to write about when I started this post, but it is gone now because my brain is malfunctioning. Oh well. I'm sure it wasn't important.