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shadaras asked about things child-me wanted to be when I grew up.
When I was very
very small, I was a hard-core dinosaur kid and I told everybody I wanted to be a paleontologist. I also considered being an entomologist, because bugs are also super cool. (And also because bugs very much bother my sister Megan and we had a difficult and adversarial relationship growing up.) I don't think I was interested in making new discoveries - I just wanted to know as much information about those topics as I possibly could.
Later, by middle/high school, when you have to write all those "what do you want to be when you grow up" essays, I wanted to be a singer, specifically on Broadway. This vague idea persisted into college - I was a vocal performance major my freshman year. I am a good singer and I enjoy it very much, but I definitely don't have the chops to be a professional. Or the personality, for that matter. I didn't want to be famous or to see my name in lights or whatever. I just wanted to sing.
I also, pretty persistently, wanted to be
magical. I picked up odd shiny things and kept them
just in case. I was weird about doorways and mirrors
because you never know. I talked to animals and trees and various other natural phenomena
because it couldn't hurt - might as well start cultivating good relationships. I was a weird, witchy, mystic kid whose friends used to have me pray over their tests for them because my prayers were somehow more effective.
And now I am 36 and I work in a library (where I can find as much information as I want on anything) and I sing in a community choir (which I am much more suited to) and I am a weird mystic pagan who still talks to birds and is cautious around mirrors. So I have mostly achieved my childhood goals.
I mean, I'm still working on becoming an actual necromancer or a Deep One, but I figure those are life-long-learning kind of endeavors.
